It's so crazy how processing old traumas can sometimes lead to a surge in energy. I've struggled with motivation for years (I recognize that yours was much more serious than struggling with motivation, but still I relate). Recently I got a therapist and finally talked about some of the old bullshit I thought I was already over, and BOOM. Suddenly I can get shit done again.

Anyway, damn. You've done a good job writing matter-of-factly and authentically about the effects of trauma. Hell of a read.